Post by Dusky on Oct 4, 2007 10:30:29 GMT
I'm sitting in my dodgily awful room for about the 50th time in 5 days crying, I hate it here, even though the course is interesting and the people are... well I don't know anyone ;_;
I MISS YOU ALL! I miss home, I miss my mommy and my horsey and my cats and my family and friends.. I miss things like home cooked food and CARPETS for god's sake!! I miss having a bathroom where the loo and shower are in the same place and I don't have to walk up/down three flights of stairs to GET to them. I'm so lonely here.. and I don't like clubbing, or alcohol, I can't make friends easily..
I'm broke too.. my accomodation bill (HA!) is £1600 .. ponycon is paid for but at this rate I'll be walking to the airport and the hotel I'm so LOW and depressed, it's only when I'm around other bods - my brother is in durham so I invade his house - that I'm okay but now I'm here and meant to be working I feel AWFUL.
the college food isn't great but I can't budget to go buy my own food now and the 'kitchen' is a sink with a worktop, I don't even know if the microwave works.. I have a kettle that my mommy bought for me.
EVERYTHING reminds me of mommy, I've been here since friday and she left so early on sunday I had to say goodbye saturday afternoon... and she left my accomodation building, I started crying and I chased after her but she was gone by the time I rounded the corner!! I WANT MY MOMMY!
I'm sounding so immature I know... but I think the first thing I do at ponycon will be to hug everybody and be thoroughly disgusting and start crying again ;_;
I MISS YOU ALL! I miss home, I miss my mommy and my horsey and my cats and my family and friends.. I miss things like home cooked food and CARPETS for god's sake!! I miss having a bathroom where the loo and shower are in the same place and I don't have to walk up/down three flights of stairs to GET to them. I'm so lonely here.. and I don't like clubbing, or alcohol, I can't make friends easily..
I'm broke too.. my accomodation bill (HA!) is £1600 .. ponycon is paid for but at this rate I'll be walking to the airport and the hotel I'm so LOW and depressed, it's only when I'm around other bods - my brother is in durham so I invade his house - that I'm okay but now I'm here and meant to be working I feel AWFUL.
the college food isn't great but I can't budget to go buy my own food now and the 'kitchen' is a sink with a worktop, I don't even know if the microwave works.. I have a kettle that my mommy bought for me.
EVERYTHING reminds me of mommy, I've been here since friday and she left so early on sunday I had to say goodbye saturday afternoon... and she left my accomodation building, I started crying and I chased after her but she was gone by the time I rounded the corner!! I WANT MY MOMMY!
I'm sounding so immature I know... but I think the first thing I do at ponycon will be to hug everybody and be thoroughly disgusting and start crying again ;_;